Pick my brain
Why this website?
4:00 pm | March 25, 2012

Author: Mayank | Category: | Comments: 6

Can I have some memories please?Why am I putting my brain on display? What’s so special about it?

Short answer: It can make new memories, but can’t recall the past 26 years.

Long answer: I am a technology writer and a published author, recovering from hydrocephalus caused due to tuberculous meningitis. Memory loss is a common side effect of this neurological condition, but my neurologist is however concerned with the extent of my memory loss.

Not only do I not remember the events leading up to or during the time at the hospital, what’s really puzzling my neurologist is my lack of any autobiographical and episodic memory — I don’t remember spending *any* time with my family or growing up with my brother, nor my friends or the time I spent at school, or writing the books and hundreds of articles.

Chronologically, I am 29 years old, but the first memories I have are only a couple of years old.

In the course of my treatment (January 2010 onwards) I’ve had about a dozen MRI and CT scans. I’ve put them all up on the site, along with the radiologist’s reports and other details about my health and recovery.

In case my condition would be of any use to your memory-related neurological research, feel free to use them as you wish. You can also email me if you need additional details, or if you have some pointers about my memory loss and would like to talk to my neurologist.


Mayank Sharma (geekybodhi@gmail.com)


  • Hello Mayank: Frankly, I was awestruck to know your perseverance to regain your identity. Once again I have started wondering about the delicate mechanics and balances of the physical mind which can alter everything. Yes, past is what you are today- but, only in a general sense. It is your response to the events and the stimulus you had during such past events that makes you what you are today. Your present personality and traits are the sum total of these responses. I am curious to know if it is the memory of chronological events or your responses to such events that you are trying to pick up. I guess they are two different things. Reflecting on chronological memory, personality and identity might give you some clue. I would like to know more about you. Let me know if I would like to share your inner thoughts. I am a senior broadcaster and writer. Warm wishes…ILYAS AHMED

    12:39 pm | August 24, 2012
    • I’d say that in the beginning I was interested in the past chronological events probably because I was looking to find familiarity with my surroundings and those around me. Later on, as I became more aware of myself as an individual I wanted to understand what made me, me. The focus then shifted to my reactions to situations and the decisions I had made earlier in life.

      But the important bit is to be aware of the thin line between “learning from the past” and “living in the past”. My objective is the former. I am only interested in the past, so that I can make an informed decision about my present. I want to use the past as a platform to move ahead, rather than start from scratch.

      4:25 pm | August 29, 2012
  • Hi! Mayank, great to re-connect with you after your reboot. This would be a great opportunity for you to delve into meditation. You’d love it. Discover and explore here: http://www.oshonisarga.com


    7:52 pm | September 8, 2012
    • Thanks for the pointer Niyam.

      8:00 pm | September 8, 2012
  • Evelyn

    Hi Mayank,
    I stumbled upon your video and really felt connected to your story and the reconstruction of your memories.

    You know i had a car accident back in January and lost many memories from my past life, I can totally understand how lost one can feel, and the sense of floating in a parallel dimension between the past that you may never get back, and the future that looks so damn uncertain….

    A while ago, I saw this picture on Fb with a phrase that made think quite a lot, it said “collect memories not things”

    I suddenly realized that, while my previous experiences made me who I was, I had been given a chance fro a do over, a could re-design a new me, with new personality traits, new dreams. I could dictate new terms.

    Suddenly I felt even excited that I had been liberated from all those childhood traumas most people complain about, you know, like being embarrassed by your mum kissing you in front of your friends, or peeing your pants in primary school .

    While the accident had taken away my memories, it had also taken away my emotional baggage and had given me something precious back: my sense of wonder, the chance to see the world with brand new eyes.

    I am now ready to start collecting memories and I wish you the very best on your journey

    11:27 am | November 7, 2012
  • ian franklin

    Hi: Im just in the process of recovering in Chiang Mai from TB/meningitis. Fortunately we caught it early and I have my memory and everything else. But when I was struck down with this I was (and am) an incredibly fit 66 year old racing cyclist covering some 600km per week. It has left me very depressed and wondering how this could have happened. Best wishes to you. It seems so hard for you.

    8:19 am | October 27, 2014
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